A story of, for and about Hope. Our princess Honkey Plonk- Hope Olivia. One very special lil lady, who brings so much joy!
Saturday, 9 January 2010
A belated Happy New Year
Apologies to 'followers'. I have really been slacking with the blog. There's probably a lot I need to fill in on, but wouldn't know where to start, so I'll begin by wishing everyone a happy new year.
I'm hoping this year will be a quieter one than the last few, that we'll spend less time at hospitals than the last few, and more importantly, that it will be less sad than the last few!
On a positive note; Hope is still seizure free! It's been almost 2 months now I think (with the exception of 7 spasms she had one day when she caught a virus).
The 'around the child' meeting that I mentioned in the last blog, was largely positive, with the exception of something that was said that I'm hoping i misunderstood. Too sad to even type :O(
Again, the topic of more tests came up, and I'm certainly giving it some serious consideration.
Oh, and Hope came up as delayed by 4-6 months on her speech and language assessment. Now some might consider that really bad on a baby who was at the time 11 months, but for me, it's REALLY positive! It means, she is making progress, and is no longer at newborn state.
We were also given a referal to use the hydrotherapy pool (which just happens to be 5 minutes away from our house). We've only been once so far, but it was lovely. Hope had a great time, the pool was so warm it was like getting into a bath, she was laughing and spashing and didn't get fed up, and we were eventually asked to leave after over and hour because it was closing.
On a sad note, we've come in contact with another baby girl 'M' who has recently been diagnosed with infantile spasms (the same kind of epilepsy as Hope has, which is a 'catastrophic' diagnosis). We came into contact with them through the lovely Dr. Ch, who was so concerned for this baby, whilst recognising it was completely unethical, but seeing the needs of the patient over everything else, urgently needed some vigabatrin, which we supplied. So far, our contact has been brief; texts and calls, but we plan to meet in the new year. Of course, I am sad to know of another life claimed by the devastating prognosis, it will be nice to share experiences, worries etc with someone.
Sorry if that was all a bit of a jumble...I mustn't leave it so long....Now I'm gonna post another blog about Hope's first Xmas...(See above)
To say that Hope was a much wanted baby would be an understatement. Longed for, dreamed of and needed would be closer to the truth. Her big brother Sam died on Christmas day 07, leaving her Mummy, Daddy, big sister- Jordan, and big brother Max sad beyond words. Four months after lil Sam's death, and we were blessed with another pregnancy. Surely everything would be ok this time around? Sam had died of a diapramatic hernia, so knowing the increased odds of having another baby with CDH, we waited before breaking the news to Jordan and Max. At 13 weeks gestation, we were given the all clear and told the baby was a boy. So why was I dreaming about a little girl called Hope? We broke the news to an excited Jordan and Max. This is when the growing fetus was named 'Honk' (will explain this at some point). After 2 weeks of delight our bubble was burst. There was something wrong. Here began our rollercoaster. Baby Hope was diagnosed prenatally with cerebellum hypoplasia and ventriculomegaly. We were advised to...I can't even type it, but obviously we didn't. Fot the first 3 months Hope appeared to be 'normal' - against the odds, but as time went on, it is becoming clear that all may not be as well as it could be. Hope is now globally delayed, and has recently been diagnosed with epilepsy. Did we ask for a special child? No, but we have been blessed with one. Would we turn back time? No. Hope has bought light where there was dark; smiles where there were tears. I'm sure we will learn more from her than we will ever teach her. Who knows what the future holds for Hope. But I swear, I will always do the best by her and she will know love! Update: Hope has recently been diagnosed with a mitochondrial disorder (high lactic acidosis). Due to the fact that any findings will not provide cures or even treatments we have declined further investigations (skin and muscle biopsies seem too much ).
I am happily married to Chris. I am Mummy to 4 beautiful children, but my beautiful 3rd baby is in heaven.
I am in my 5th year of a BA degree in Childhood and youth Studies. I enjoy my children, reading, studying, blogging, facebook, my friends, and if i get a spare moment, my newest hobby is knitting pretty little things for my smallest princess.