Ok, so it's probably only temporary resolution, but for now, it's resolution.
I'd cooked up some fish and potato in milk, which Honk devoured, so I decided to give her the remainder of her milky bar from Nanny.
Not quite sure how or where the idea came from, but, for now, this is how I (am trying) see it....
When you rent a DVD, you don't think about taking it back before you've watched it, you don't dread returning it ( even if it's a great movie), you enjoy it. Then when your time is up, you return it.
Hope is mine. For now. I must try not to think about when, how etc, but enjoy every second.
There's a poem. I'm not quite sure of exact words (perhaps one of my sands friends can add it as a comment if they know the one I mean). It goes something like this...
A little flower,
Lent not given
To bud on earth
And bloom In heaven
Poor Chris took a bit of a blow today I think. We were out buying pretty clothes for the girlies (max was round his
Mate's house). Outside mothercare we bumped into hope's birthday buddy ( his
Mum and I met through sands cause like me she lost a baby in 07, then despite being due about 3 weeks apart had our next babies on the same day on the same hospital). Anyway, we stood and chatted for a few minutes. It was nice to see them. It was only when we got home that chris said he hadn't realised how delayed hope was until he'd seen her birthday buddy. It's not like we were even with them for long, or that the lil chap was
Mobile ( cause he wasn't- he was just in his pram). But he was socially aware. Of himself and others.
I suppose cause a) he's a bloke, b) he doesn't come into much contact with babies c) cause her birthday buddy represents a direct comparison, chris had
Overlooked hope's disabilities. That's a good thing though really. Like I said to
Him, hope is hope and she does the best she can do!
I'm sure tomorrow I'll b back down again. But so long as I can keep picking myself back up...
Still no news on results (obviously). Next week I expect. I
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