A story of, for and about Hope. Our princess Honkey Plonk- Hope Olivia. One very special lil lady, who brings so much joy!
Friday, 12 March 2010
More good news
For one reason or another (appointments clashing or his holidays) a couple of months have lapsed since we last saw dr ch. He's Hope's main man in my view. It's now coming on 4 months since Hope's seizures miraculously vanished, and she's really developed a lot! As is norm, the first ten minutes of the appointment was spent with dr ch holding hope and admiring her. Honestly, the way he is with her, you'd think he was a proud grandparent rather than a doctor. Anyway, he was sooooo pleased with her and how she's doing. He said it's beautiful to see her so well and alert and attentive- even though hope was being a bit of a diva :0)
The recommended dose of vigabatrin (epilepsy meds) is between 30-150 mg per kg of body weight. Though higher doses can be given. At one point (Under instruction of course) I was giving hope 180mg per kg of her weight to try to keep the nasty seizures at bay. However, since the seizures have vanished (touch wood) I've not needed to increAse her meds, yet her weight has continued to increase, in effect bringing down her dosage to about 140mg per kg. However, this is still a high dose, and being aware that her kidneys are having to work very hard to process this drug, I asked dr ch if he would agree to me dropping them. I half expected to get a telling off for even suggesting such a thing..something along the lines of 'if it's not broken...' Anyway, he did agree. And thought it the right course of action. His recommedations on the drop were greater than I feel comfortable with, so I'll probably do it a lot more gradually. In fact this particular appointment was last week and I still haven't even began to reduce them; I'm waiting for hope to be in 'tip top' health; and at the moment she has a cough, Is getting over a suspected case of hand, foot and mouth disease and being treated for oral thrush :0/
Her physical examination was positive; they are happy with her growth, but more noteworthy is her reflexes are now 'normal' (previously reffered to as 'brisk') and her tone is now 'normal' (instead of 'floppy').
And, I've ....(struggling for the right word here)...given in/ changed my mind (neither of those really fit; I haven't given in because I haven't been pressured in the slightest, and changed my mind isn't true either, because I really don't want them done still, but I know it's the right thing to do ) about the whole skin and muscle biopsies. After 6ish months, I've decided we need to get them done. all the other tests have been inconclusive, but show markers (lactic acidosis) for mitichodrial myopathy. There's a chance that by knowing more, Hope could be given vitamins/supplements to balance things out. Dr Ch now thinks that there's a fairly good (75%) chance that we still won't get a firm Diagnosis. That suits me just fine! I don't really want to know. Would anybody want to know how long they have? Really spoils things I think.
To say that Hope was a much wanted baby would be an understatement. Longed for, dreamed of and needed would be closer to the truth. Her big brother Sam died on Christmas day 07, leaving her Mummy, Daddy, big sister- Jordan, and big brother Max sad beyond words. Four months after lil Sam's death, and we were blessed with another pregnancy. Surely everything would be ok this time around? Sam had died of a diapramatic hernia, so knowing the increased odds of having another baby with CDH, we waited before breaking the news to Jordan and Max. At 13 weeks gestation, we were given the all clear and told the baby was a boy. So why was I dreaming about a little girl called Hope? We broke the news to an excited Jordan and Max. This is when the growing fetus was named 'Honk' (will explain this at some point). After 2 weeks of delight our bubble was burst. There was something wrong. Here began our rollercoaster. Baby Hope was diagnosed prenatally with cerebellum hypoplasia and ventriculomegaly. We were advised to...I can't even type it, but obviously we didn't. Fot the first 3 months Hope appeared to be 'normal' - against the odds, but as time went on, it is becoming clear that all may not be as well as it could be. Hope is now globally delayed, and has recently been diagnosed with epilepsy. Did we ask for a special child? No, but we have been blessed with one. Would we turn back time? No. Hope has bought light where there was dark; smiles where there were tears. I'm sure we will learn more from her than we will ever teach her. Who knows what the future holds for Hope. But I swear, I will always do the best by her and she will know love! Update: Hope has recently been diagnosed with a mitochondrial disorder (high lactic acidosis). Due to the fact that any findings will not provide cures or even treatments we have declined further investigations (skin and muscle biopsies seem too much ).
I am happily married to Chris. I am Mummy to 4 beautiful children, but my beautiful 3rd baby is in heaven.
I am in my 5th year of a BA degree in Childhood and youth Studies. I enjoy my children, reading, studying, blogging, facebook, my friends, and if i get a spare moment, my newest hobby is knitting pretty little things for my smallest princess.