Friday, 28 August 2009

Dead inside

Can't believe there can be something sooo wrong :0(
I Just can't imagine life without Hope
Or seeing her get really poorly

My heart feels dead! I'm just going through the motions of life. But it's not fun

I keep trying to think positive. ...That perhaps it won't be that bad...
But they r bad!
I can't see past the dark clouds
My heart is heavy :0(
I wanna cry, but can't for sake of kids

The more I read, I just can't pin down which one of the 4 she has. But I suppose it explains a lot; her failure to thrive, her need to feed almost constantly, the fact she still doesn't sleep through the night on a regular basis.

I just hope we get the results soon
Then I can learn more
And find out how long
:0(

4 comments:

  1. Elli (EuansMummy)28 August 2009 at 13:08

    (((Caroline)))

    I know there are no words that can take your pain and fear away right now, but want to send you so very much love.
    When we found out how bad things were with Euan I remember saying I didn't know what to do. The best advise I was given was to 'just love him'.

    Just keep on loving and living for Hope, sometimes it's all we can do.
    Love always,
    Elli
    xxx

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  2. kelly dace (shaunas mummy)29 August 2009 at 04:05

    no words for you. just some hugs (())

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  3. words dont cut it babe.....the only thing i would say is make these moments count, and live in the present as much as you can.Dont forget to enjoy her by thinking too far ahead babe.I know thats so easy for me to say as im not in your shoes and i cant inagine how your shoes feel but i hope you know where im coming from.Lots and lots of love
    Di, Melissa and Mark xx

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  4. hi caroline
    cannot even imagine how you are feeling just now but sending you and your family all my love, and praying for a miracle for baby Hope.xx

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